in the pliocene era
having received a transmission
from the universal kind
we shed our monkey skins
and came down from the trees
to a new way of living in fellowship
with inspirited minds
our earliest religions, the goddess cults
were formed around menstruation
the wound that heals itself
wise women, mothers and midwives
possessed the knowledge of plants
and understood the importance
of maintaining strong societal relations
for the common good
then came the priests, who,
even with their strength and power,
could not conceive, give birth or nourish their offspring. …
She’s in a nursing home now and I’m waiting for her to die. Every few months I get a phone call from them and they always start the same way. “I’m calling about your mother but don’t worry, she’s fine.” Better luck next time, I always think. Usually they just need permission for something like changing her medication or taking her to a doctor. Last year she had a tumor on the side of her face. They called and asked if they should cut it out and give her chemo. Medicaid will pay for it. I said, sure, why not…
I got my first crown one month into the shut-in, shut-down, whatever you call it. The beginning of the time when nothing changed, when the before and after merged. I had been dutifully avoiding contact. No, I wasn’t. The social ramifications of the pandemic were my wet dream.
terrified by the sound of the dentist’s drill agonizing my porcelain afraid of pain
A few days after the introduction of what felt like smoothly polished porcelain I was in love with my new tooth. My tongue could not stop caressing it. I imagined replacing all my teeth.
grind the old tooth…
When I opened my Bikram Yoga studio, I wanted to make it a safe and comfortable space for our clients. In my teacher training with Bikram Choudhury, he modeled a lot of behavior that I was intent on avoiding. Yoga Journal dubbed him the yoga community’s “bad boy,” and he reveled in the notoriety by frequently berating and abusing people in his classes. At the time, I thought it was a schtick, and I still believe it began that way, but the schtick grew into an abusive megalomania.
He loved fat shaming people, especially women. He framed it as truth-telling…
This is part of a series of articles describing the the Bikram Yoga beginning class posture sequence.
Half Tortoise is primarily a relaxation posture. It is said to enhance longevity by slowing the breathing.
Start in a kneeling position, legs together, hips on the heels, sitting upright. Raise the arms overhead and bring the palms together in prayer position with thumbs crossed. Keep the palms pressed firmly together throughout the posture. Try to keep the hips…
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